Encountering the Father

dadandkidI used to wonder how to relate to God as my Dad. I used to tell Him that it’s easy for me to regard Him as my God and Lord, ’cause He is big and that no one’s like Him and He alone is God. However, with all honesty and sadness, I told Him that it was a struggle for me to relate with Him as my Father.

See, I didn’t quite have that good start with my earthly dad (we do now, thank God). I don’t even want to put in here what happened as my respect towards my father. But we’re okay now. It sure was tough though. I harbored bitterness and hatred inside. The worst thing was it affected my relationship with my Heavenly Dad big time.

And oh He knows how to extend a helping hand.

I attended one of those PSALM leadership trainings many years back in Cebu. I remember that I was heavy hearted, depressed. I’d been like that for 2 years I think. One time, I went into the prayer room. There were a few leaders there… praying. I sat down and began to pray and told God again about my struggle and it was frustrating me.

I’ll try to describe what happened next.

I was just there… talking to Him… and then I sensed Him embracing me. I sensed this overwhelming peace and joy. I couldn’t help my tears. I cried so much… not out of depression and heaviness. It was different! Very different. Those were tears of joy and peace and freedom and lightness and all the good stuff. Haha. He was more real than the presence of those in the room.

I’ve realized…

He never left, but had been there with me all those times… and that He loved me simply because He is love… and that my depression and the strife between me and my father, and all the hatred and bitterness in me blinded me… and that He alone can set me free… He did set me free. 🙂

After that day…

I see things differently. I had learnt to forgive and let go. I no longer am depressed. I harbor hatred, no more.

I don’t think I know Him fully, but there’s been an in-depth revelation of how He loves me. I think, we all need a revelation of Him being our Abba Father. I believe we all need to EXPERIENCE who He is as a Dad, as our Dad. I believe that the Father’s love erases all the fears, depression, etc.

Our earthly fathers do their best to become good fathers, but our Heavenly Father is always a good Father. He is a perfect Dad. May His love be poured into each one of us.

Can you share your experience with our Daddy God as well?

Be Careful With Your Heart

More than a year ago, the Lord taught me a very important lesson that I pray I will never forget, ever.

I had always wondered why I was often overwhelmed about a lot of things. There was almost no day at all that I wasn’t worried and stressed out. Perhaps it could be because of my schedule, perhaps it was my job, maybe the energy suckers around me (hehe). I didn’t know why. Pretty soon, the weariness got a toll on my relationships, work, my behavior and literally everything connected to me. Something was just not right. Christians are supposedly the happiest people on earth. This was obviously not true at all in my life. Why? I was a serious Christian then. I was even an intern pastor!

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My New Love

I never thought I would fall In love with you. Back in the day, I tried hard to go past you. You looked so wonderful. I felt it was impossible for me to have you.

I tried to look for others. The wondering never stopped. Could it be possible to know you more than this? Could it be possible to understand you? Even cherish you?

My friends say good things about you. I kept my pride though. I didn’t mind you. Who wants to fail anyways? I didn’t. But, I guess one will never know unless she tries.

So finally after years of going away I’m here. I’m here to stay.

Oh I never thought I would fall in love with you–cooking.

Our Pets

If there’s something that we four share (my parents me and my brother), it is our love for pets. We have plenty of them in the house. We have three cats and a dog. Four is plenty? Yes, for us at least. Here they are!

ImageSay hi to Jap! I named her Japinta Macala. Jap because she’s a mix Japanese spitz and that other breed which I forget. Forgive me, I no longer can recall. Haha! I also gave her our last name, Macala. Isn’t that cool? I thought so.

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Four

My mentor said that for one to have a healthy life, he has to have people mentoring him, people befriending him (peers) and people he’s mentoring as well. I’m blessed to have all three. I got people pouring their lives into mine with the hope to make me better. I have awesome friends who encourage me. And God has been so gracious to give me the privilege to mentor some people as well.

Although, God has used a lot of people to teach me lessons in life; I have decided to mention only four in this post. This post is dedicated to the FOUR PEOPLE God has used to teach me lessons I will never forget.

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Day of Rest

Yesterday was fun. I was just trying to make my Sabbath really a day of rest. So with some friends and a new one, I went to a park in Panagdait, Cebu City. We ate, took pictures of ourselves (FB!!!), walked, laughed, chitchatted and watched the animals there. Man! How long has it been since I felt alive?

Oh did I forget to mention that it was amazing that all the girlfriends wore pink? Well yeah! We didn’t talk about it, didn’t plan it, but it just turned out that way. And by the way, the food was sumptuous and I ate a lot! (Sorry, diet…) Continue reading